For One To Rise, Another Must Fall
Reality.
It is somewhat synonymous with harsh, cruel, vicious, savage, inhuman.
But then again, it is what makes us human.
"For one to rise, another must fall"
Something i learnt over the years..
The inevitable system that plagues each and every one of us.
And, over the years, i have been causing the demise of many.
Well, not exactly their deaths, but ‘deaths’ of their character.
If you ever watched Heroes, what i did the past year or two, was exactly like Sylar’s actions.
Though i dont really ’steal powers/abilities’; but, my contact with several special people somehow drained off their character, their spark of life. In other words, i ‘killed’ the person.
A quest to attain wisdom, intelligence.
A voyage for new experiences, adulthood, maturity.
Sure, i’ve gotten immeasurable amounts of them.
But is it a plausible excuse? An acceptable explanation?
For my own selfish gains, for the ‘betterment’ of me.
But is it of any good?
When another character perishes while mine prevails..?
Am I a monster? A plague? A predator?
What have I become?
No single moment can ever pass me again without the guilt of the past haunting me.
I have destroyed what i originally intended to develop in people.
Instead of sparking inspiration, i have decimated their capacity of being a complex character.
It is as if I was transforming dense, lush greenery into a barren desert.
Sucking the life out of everything.
My thoughts. My speeches. My actions.
Forever changing lives i encounter.
For the better or worse.
And now, i am doing all i can to make amends,
For all the things that i’ve done.
One small step at a time.
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I have realized the fact that i have exactly less than 20 days left before the much-awaited and dearly beloved exam, SPM.
But when matters of heart comes into play, you just cant ignore it, can you. . .
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"Love me when i least deserve it, because that’s when i really need it"
