Why havent i been posting in my blog for the past few months?
SPM. Go figure.
I dont have the luxury of 4 hours to sit down and go into a trance, typing my thoughts and emotions out in this tiny space.
Dont mind the title, its a little something i felt like writing, since i just finished watching the final episode of "Who Wants To Be A Superhero" ; where the winner gets to be immortalized in a comic book by Stan Lee.
In Christianity, it is believed that everybody has been created for a specific purpose, their own reason to live, existing in God’s "big plan" of the universe.
Henceforth, everybody will have their own special abilities, gifts, or talents thrusted within them.
If you look at it from a ‘comic book’ point of view, its a matter of you, using your ‘powers’ for good or evil.
And what is my so-called special ability, you might ask.. Super strength? Lightning speed? X-ray vision ? (i wouldnt mind having that.. haha!)
No..
Im more of a person that can change people’s lives with my presence. Its something that everybody always take for granted, actually.
My presence, thought, speech and actions, can indirectly, or directly change people’s opinions and passions about certain things and issues.
Somehow, i can make, break, relate, dissipate, complicate, simplify, strengthen, weaken, nullify, and also force friendships, partnerships, relationships and everything there is involving people and their social groups.
I have to be honest, I dont really know how to control this ‘ability’. This has led into many heartbreaks, hatred feelings, grudges, attempts of near-suicides, emotional and mental breakdowns, financial instability, loss of dignity, and basically all-round destruction in people’s lives.
Imagine Clark Kent, who just discovered he got his powers and all.
It took a while for him to adjust and control his new-found abilities.
Mistakes made. Destruction occurs. Lives forever changed.
And believe me, every single life that has been affected by me, takes a huge toll on my conscience.
Doctors.
They have that amazing ability to save people’s lives.
The miraculous efforts to stop them from dying, cure them from illnesses. To them, people’s lives are at stake, and the operating theater is their battlefield.
Their failure is equivalent to 1 life lost.
Im juggling with people’s lives too , though not in terms of their health.
Its more concentrated on their emotional, mental and social well being.
If I screw up, i would leave them emotionally scarred permanently and destroy ties to any group of friends or whatsoever that exists revolving around the person.
But then again, i have received the perks of the job.
Though i have ruined lives, i have made lives better as well.
Recently, me and my pal are on the quest to improve some of our friends’ standard of living.
Climbing up the ladder in the social world.
Though i am not exactly a socialite, at least im giving them an opportunity to experience life in a totally different angle, where there are more than 1 group or type of people to mix around with.
Its amazing how some people, have all the things in the world. They have all the talents, all the jokes and all the skills that everyone else would kill to have.
But, its sad that the whole world somehow looked past them.
**This quest, however, is not finished yet, and maybe one day you can see me posting about the results. But till then, just wait for it.
I am a traveller. I go into different worlds.
Like i said before,
"Its a small KL, but we all live in different worlds"
Correct me if im wrong, but thats a fact.
And in these different worlds, its a different ball game every time.
Different people, different way of living, different ‘eco-system’ , different way of ruling, literally.
I can see dictatorships, democracy, and despotism in action.
Honestly speaking, to travel in so many different places, in different worlds and parallel universes…
I am truly thankful to be able to do so.
To see the magic of life. The many different people. The many different things you learn. The principles. The drama. The action. The life lessons you pick up along the way.
Though i love to ‘travel’ in between these ‘different worlds’ … It is inevitable for me to leave my mark in each and every one of them. Be it a good one, or a bad one.
From total annihilation and destruction of a social group, to the total unification of a number of people as one.
I guess a twist of fate, and generally a bit of luck plays a big factor in all of these, really. . .
At the end of the day, when i look back…
Some of the things that i have done.. Wow…
To think, i did all that…
To do some of the things unimaginable to some,
unthinkable to the rest.
To see things that happen only in your wildest imaginations.
To experience moments that you only see in the movies.
I am a long term person, my actions now, may not bear the results immediately, but you would see it in the many days to come.
There are some occasions where i ’sacrificed’ myself, for the good, benefit or growth of the person or group.
Yeah, isolating myself from them by my irreversible actions, resulting in dire consequences..
I may never get to interact or get in touch with some of these people i know, ever again.
I know i have done certain things that i am not proud of.
Supposedly doing the wrong things, but for the right reasons….
But then again, i keep on telling myself,
"they’ll thank me later for this".
And hope that one day, i may get the chance of obtaining forgiveness and regaining trust of certain parties.
Recently, while i’ve been thinking and pondering over the past, I have suddenly developed a certain liking for this song:
"My Way" by Frank Sinatra.
"… Regrets, I’ve had a few,
But then again, too few to mention;
I did, what i had to do,
And saw it through, without exemption…."
We are all created with a purpose. And im very sure we all have a common goal, of making the world a better place.
How do we do that? Well, you dont need any super powers to do it.
It all starts from a random act of kindness, and serving your purpose.
When you receive your ‘calling’, do what is needed to be done.
No matter how small your deed is. No matter how insignificant it may seem. But when it makes a change in the world, it matters.
So, what is Your special ability?
